Random thoughts as they come

Getting onto blogger after a long hiatus. That too probably cause i can't sleep and don't find anything else to pass my time with.

Looking for some inspiration here. I know i could have done something better with my life up until now and i am pretty sure i feel like nothing is lost.

Probably thats where the complacency creeps in :)

A friend once suggested that you shouldn't get too personal in your blog. People tend to assume things or get to know about you which you would like to keep a secret. Well i wouldn't be writing something on a blog if i wanted to hide it i guess, so thats covered.

I was thinking lying down what i could do with my time. I probably think a lot and am too lazy to go out there and implement it. Too lazy, too tired, too bored.

I have had some really good friends. End of the day i feel good. I am not someone who opens out to others very easily. There are a very few who know a lot about me. But i have made some friends whom i have shared with. Who i trust. And i am happy about that. I am also sorry for a few instances in my life which obviously can't be undone. But thats life. I am atleast strong enough to accept my faults (i think)

I have been accused of not being ambitious which works against me a lot. And i am pretty sure i am going to face that in the near future as well.

I think i am doing what i feel like doing. And at the end of the day atleast i'll be content that i am in this position because of me. I dont have anyone or anything to blame, 'cause i dont like doing that. Whatever happens with our lives i guess we always have choices to make. What we choose is what we get. And i choose to be myself.

Life goes on....

People say life goes on... every good thing comes to an end one day and others follow...
But i dont understand how does it really end. "Forget it" is the plea. But does human mind so easily forget. If i can recall minor petty incidents from when i was maybe just five how can one "forget it".
Forget the times which made you happy... Forget the incidents which made you sad...
Life goes on because you encounter many more such incidents but you never forget... do you? then teach me too...
We are not senile so as to forget... I read somewhere "to forget is human, to forgive divine". To forgive is divine. If one can really forgive. Not on the outside but totally. I am human to say the least... but forgetting seems to be even more divine... much more difficult to achieve than forgiving or forgoing which seems the easiest of all... which most of us do... we forego...

We all are still children. Everyday we learn something, we learn about people, we get new insights in life and this never ever ends. How does one grow up then? Is age an indicator? Is knowledge? Is your experience... all this is restricted to our present... who can predict the future... we all will grow older, gain more knowledge, experience more... we still have to grow up

And children learn the fastest... remember the most... we might not be as retentive as earlier but we will be better than tomorrow cause we are still younger than what comes next... we know what has happened... and thats why we are in this situation... life is causal... our past affects our actions of today... we cannot run in a loop of feedback cause we dont get a second chance we cant roll back time... we might predict what could happen but it can all change for the good or for the bad no one knows... we will learn when time comes... the only thing we can do is plan and work so that nothing goes too bad... and if it does we have the strength to deal with it...

Life goes on...

LONELY

I am sitting with a crowd,
still have no one to talk to.
Everyones speaking out aloud,
someone direct it to me too.

I am listening to some,
but cant understand a thing.
In my mind it doesn't come,
as we have no common string.

All the faces seem blurred,
and i don't notice anyone.
And when my memory's stirred,
I can't recall a person.

Why am i being neglected,
why no one seems to care.
Why am i always lonely,
for me no one is there

SOME FEELINGS :-)

1) Life is not walked on two legs, its a joint effort of many hands

2) Everyday in the morning i wake up not knowing whats in store for me, still i am happy coz i am not afraid to fight

3) A child sees and learns a lot, don't hide wrongs from him so that he can differentiate it with the rights in future

4) Life is like wet sand, people trod, leave their footprints. But sooner or later a wave comes and washes them away making it afresh for others to play

5) Love is not fulfilling other persons desires, but knowing their wishes without their ever mentioning

6) Everybody in this world is selfish. A selfless deed may not fetch material benefits but often suffices with emotional ones

7) True friendship is like playing on a see saw, you don't mind going down to see your friend rise

8) Try not to mock your friends, words spoken are etched in ones mind forever

9) Do not be hasty, don't make mistakes which would make you repent later

10) Life doesnt give you many chances, but for every chance, it gives you a lot of choices; choose wisely

11) The greatest satisfaction is to help someone and they don't know whom to thank

12) Everybody has two sides a good and a bad; The ones who are called good are the ones who try to act nicely most of the time. The more you pretend the better you become,
The ones who are really good are the ones who act nicely not only with others around but think good even when they are alone

13) Life tests you at every stage, take each loss positively. Its always better to lose at many stages than to win all. A loser learns more and has greater chances of improvement

14) The more you learn to forgive the happier your life becomes

15) To forget is humane to forgive divine

16) Patience is a virtue which helps you deal with any jolts in life

17) There is no point in lying cause you don't hide anything from your conscience

18) Don't make someone a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life

19) Stop trying to help someone who doesn't want to improve

20) Don’t try to judge people, we might not be right ourselves… We can never be conclusive about a person… There is always a reason to everything that someone does, try and reason that out… we might find the answer to what went wrong

Loser?

At every stage of life
and at end of every game
after full of struggle and strife
emerges someone looking tame

They are looked down upon
cause they didnt finish top
do we have the courage to own
we didnt even try to prop

We judge them for their deeds
and say they were not good
we look for where they were weak
without knowing the effort they put

They are called losers by us
but who is a winner afterall
if you call this person a loser
i would love to be one

LIFE

My life is a world of dreams,
changing daily as if water streams.
Today i am in a gaily mood,
tomorrow its a total solitude.

I am staring at my future,
without knowing about my past.
Life is an ardent teacher,
and the knowledge you gain is vast.

I am falling for these dreams,
having no control as it seems.
Moving with crowds in my sleep,
and faces in my memory are bleak.

When shall i wake up from this night,
and get some light into this darkness.
when shall i diffrentiate between wrong and right,
and get rid of this loneliness.

Is there someone who can help me out,
or is everyones life in doubt,
i am losing time roaming about,
this life is making me shout.

Nature in our Life

Here is another try,
a poem on the sky,
the clouds, the moon, the sun,
and how they make us one;
the relation of them with us,
read it further to have trust:-

THE NATURE IN OUR LIFE

One day i saw the sky,
its changing moods i made a sigh;
I tried to relate it with ourselves,
and found our moods like the nature itself.

The sky was blue, the sun was high,
the fiery ball was shining bright;
Like a person confident of his qualities,
showing its aura to everyone it sees.

Then came a cloud like a lonely person unaware of his qualities,
which came through the path and even overshadowed the suns priorities;
But it did not have the strength to hold on,
and had to give way for the sun to shine along.

But then it gathered friends and joined hands with them,
covering the whole sky and showing their united strength;
With other people around it roared and gave a cry,
the sun had no other choice but to sit back and be wry.

Then the clouds parted and gave the sun some place,
a bond of new friendship rainbow was in space.

Then came the night and the moon stood up on his toes,
it shone the most in comparison to its starry foes;
It was an inconsistent performer one must say,
its performance first deteriorated then again advanced as we counted out the days.

But every other morning the moon became shy,
in the presence of the sun the moon bid a bye.

I thought intensely on this, while,
i knew, its not just the nature its our life.

A Friend

The person who knows all my faults;
all my shortcomings but never plots.
He is the person with whom i can share,
all my difficulties and ask for his prayer.
The person who helps me everywhere,
at every step and at every scare.

Everyone can boast of having a friend;
but see for yourself are you thinking on this trend.
A real friend will never leave you destitute,
if you are on the right path and success is in your route.
A friend is not the one who never interrupts,
when you are on the wrong path he's the first one to resurrect.
He tells you your mistakes in private in your cell,
and helps you to wipe them,off your personnel.

Judge yourself on these lines and see where you stand
Are you not being complacent very early with your friends